I locked the door and locked my head, imagination feels the void of my existence . my daddy said-" i love you girl its not your fault, your mum and me dont get along". I know  he is lying, i know theres no such things as inexplacateble. I, here , forget the world in bed , and suddenly the sun comes up, thats when my pets all come alive, they cheer me up and tell me , everything is gonna be alright. My favourite show, my favourite song i wonder if they even know, or if they care, or if they even notice iam standing there...         I was a kid , you were my Father , i didnt always understand, i wanted freedom and youve got angry. Youre concerned and ive got upset,when ive lyied to you ,i didnt wanna hurt you, you never told me that you loved me ,i know you didnt know how ...i just never new my dad..... youre my mother, and did you cry? i know i did!!!  i didnt recognize you . do you have crazy fantasys, what happens in your dreams...Do you pray???'? there are a God that shows your way?????   where are your secrets?                I guess that show us we are much the same, cuz i love you too and until now .   i guess you , guys, will always be a mistery to me! You tought me to value life and what else i need....i  just hope you are proud to me my dad....                          deeper you stick it in your vein , the deeper the thoughts, theres no more pain, iam in heaven , im a GOD, iam every where i feel so hot.......